“I Write to Find Out How I Feel About the Things I don’t Understand”

Daily writing prompt

Why do you blog?

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This was a quote from a movie I watched recently starring Nicole Kidman who played a writer. When asked why she writes she replied with, ” I write to find out how I feel about things I don’t understand.” That resonated with me on a level that I am learning runs deep. Writing for me in cathartic in many ways. I have always written just simple, unorganized thoughts and put them out into the world, only to meet the critics far before I met the compassionate. But even still, I have never fully walked away from it. Sometimes when I read over what I have written, it feels like I am meeting a woman I’ve never known. I’m surprised that certain words came from me because I am really not that deep and pensive… or am I? After all I did write it, it must have come from somewhere. So, I write to meet the me I don’t yet know. The woman with all the words I haven’t heard yet. To understand how I feel about the things I can’t fully understand but have unconsciously kept in a safe place for processing… It’s the black and white that makes it real and understandable. I wonder what will become of this small blog that took me years to find the bravery to finally write. Time will tell and maybe then, I will understand.